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[Aug. 20th, 2009|04:38 pm] |
For once I actually feel depressed.
No, not in the "OMG IMMA CUT MYSELF BRB /WRIST". More like "What the hell am I doing" wallowing in the silence kind.
I'm jsut kinda... useless.
I realized that when I get back to school I'll actually be cutting down on grocery costs. I'm at home a lot and, despite not eating regularly, I eat more than I would if I were out most of the day.
Yes. I worry about money a lot.
My dad paid my tuition for the semester. IT WAS A LOT. Then bought my textbooks. ALSO WAS A LOT.
I really wish I wasn't going to college ONLY because of the cost, but otherwise I'll need it.
I would feel like shit being at home all the time.
Hopefully I'll actually get a job now that it's getting into late summer. The kids (my boyfriend's age, a year below me) are in school, so that should help a lot.
I don't think I'll blow off anymore for fear of hurting feelings or whatever.
Something bright and happy later. . A . I hope
Excuse me while I eat buttered bread.
HHNNGGGHHHH |
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| Memes |
[Jul. 14th, 2009|02:52 pm] |
I need to manage my poor LJ better! D:
The last time I was here was a mess. So now, I'll just "clean up" a little. Be cheery! I've been filling out memes with lack of anything better to do because my boyfriend is sleeping and friends aren't on... I'll just post here for anyone to read! :3
Also, my cat is being overly whiny, I don't know what's up with him.... It drives us nuts at night.
Please enjoy.
( Ohmai, is dat soem mimis? ) |
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| Dark Horse Leak and My Dreams |
[Nov. 15th, 2008|01:10 pm] |
I... I just heard the leak of the CD myself.
There are tears in my eyes. Its amazing!
I love music. Genuinely I do- I'm still trying to open up to other genres. (I have a hate for Rap but there are some things I like and see as artistic; there are a couple country songs that don't make me hit my head on a table; and opera isn't always that bad)
Nickelback's new CD, Black Horse, is the best thing I've waited for in a long time. (No, I'm not advertising, I'm just a fan that can't afford the fanclub xD) It was leaked a couple days ago. It made me remember what it was like when I started high school and All the Right Reasons had just come out. I was young, naive, wishing to forget the world and be immersed in sound. I remember the feeling- that I wanted to be a part of it too. I didn't know it then- but I wanted to be a singer. I want to make people feel through music too- and Chad Kroger is an idol of mine. Just one of a couple, but still- the man can sing. And he can feel. And I've always wanted to do that!
Anyway- the songs are cool. All rock somehow, no matter how tame or hard the song. Theres a ballad or two as well- and those are always grand and sweet. Its... I can't explain it. I want to make music like this.
I have band practice today, and I'll be glad to leave for it soon- I want to conquer my nervousness of trying to make lyrics mix with my voice to become clear and make sense- I'm still a little scared of my own bandmates. I need to overcome it. I finally have a dream- and I'll never let it go now. Let my days begin.
After the torture called high school ends... I think everything will be even better.
In other news, can somebody pimp my CSS here? Its so ugly it hurts my eyes.
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| I am Wonderwice~~ |
[Dec. 16th, 2007|07:09 pm] |
and I thought I was Stark XDD Or, thats what everybody said. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2007|06:32 pm] |
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Just wanted to share some love <3
Wassup LJ?! I've been gone! D: Raaawr
But, yeah, I can't say much at the moment. I just need to do some gift art and survive a little more school @A@ |
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| New chapters |
[Aug. 24th, 2007|09:27 pm] |
Ahahaha~
Read Bleach AND Naruto. Szayel's release is awesome, but I keep saying hes a whore. xDD I'm sorry, thats just how he looks.... or like how my friend says, a jester.
And wow, that talk between Jiraiya and Tsunade was interesting. ._. I was one of the people who believed the 'Naruto's dad is the fourth hokage' theory, and turns out it was true. xD But his name was Namikaze Minato. WHERE'D NARUTO GET HIS LAST NAME FROM!? ... Oh, he got it from his mom... xD
... And theres a whirlpool country? xDD
Um, yeah. First week of school ended. I'm gonna sleep pretty much the whole weekend to make up for it.
AHAHAHAHA OAO |
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[Jul. 17th, 2007|01:29 pm] |
lol....
Just a tiny update. Ya know, to get the other stuff away?
Summer school is over at the end of the week. Thats all thats important <_< |
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[May. 22nd, 2007|11:30 pm] |
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| Gragh. |
[May. 6th, 2007|10:09 pm] |
OH GAWD. IT BUUURNS!!
Thanks to the http://ficbitches.livejournal.com/ I now know that I should not feel guilty about my OCs and that my writing is not nearly as bad as I think it is. Read their reviews on badfics. The canon-rape... the plotless drabble... the OOCness and MARY SUES! Oh gawd... I love these people. I just wish they would quit dissapearing. xD
Now I'm afraid they might come after me next now that I've mentioned them.... my horrible little mind doesn't need such critique at this moment. xDD But, seriously.
Time and time again, I can see that I'm not such a bad person like some authors. xDD
Enough of my mindless drabble!
I recently bought Pokemon Emerald. While everyone else is playing their Diamond/Pearl on their DS, I'm sitting in the corner with my ancient midnight blue advance with my Emerald. And to think I just beat old man Wattson earlier today. (I even kissed the screeen Dx) I really want Diamond and Pearl. I do. But, I can't afford a DS. And I want plain MONEY for my birthday. So, I don't see it in my future. :\
I have nothing else to say. School lets out in less than a month and I have nothing to look forward to but a week of freedom (sitting on my ass) and then the 4 weeks of in-session summer and AX07 inbetween.
Sigh. If only I could concentrate. |
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| Naruto: Shipuuden Episode 8-9 Hour Special! |
[Apr. 14th, 2007|12:33 pm] |
I was so upset when I couldn't find the new episode of Shipuuden on Youtube. Youtube has been where I have watched my anime for who knows how long, back whe nI had DIAL-UP as well. BUT! I, having an account on Gendou, doenloaded the episode the second I saw it! 8D Almost made me late for school, too. I also downloaded the Media Player it needed.
I have just this morning figured out how to take screencaps with it!
Aaaaaaand, I took too many. ^^; I know they're HUGE, sorry. >>; I was just having so much fun with taking them, that I didn't think I should resize my screencaps.
But, yeah, besides that, everything is pretty okay. I have a project to finish for school thats due on Wednesday thatsa bitch. I got lots of Art to do. And... its a little chilly.
Also: Does ANYONE know where I can find scans of Otosukimi Ochirukimi by CELLULOID ACME? I can't find scans anywhere, I would buy one off Ebay, but that isn't a real option, for I have no PayPal, or such.
Oh gawd, I'm getting so desperate for that doujin... |
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| Spring Break is ending >__>; |
[Apr. 8th, 2007|09:56 pm] |
Okay, Okay, I know no one reads this journal, so I guess I have it for the hell of it. I'll post. (I did read through someone's just yesterday and felt a little connected to her though... and totally stole a fic to read xD)
So yeah. I've been on break all week. And barely left the house. XD I do that, cause unless its cloudy or I have friends with me, I don't wanna be outside.
Anyway.
I felt a little bit depressed when I was talking on the phone to a friend just awhile ago. I detest school now, and the promise of a week's vacation was paradise a week ago. And, by now, it is almost gone. I don't want to go back. All I face is impending artwork to finish, and insults galore. Especially in that damned P.E. class.
But, for now, I will feel better.
I need to pay attention before I make one of these, un. xD But, its entertaining.
So yeah.. I wish I had some nice art to post, but none seems to exists.... unless you dare to click on this: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/52771968/
Yes, thats just about it this time. |
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| A little emo, a little good, a little bad? |
[Feb. 8th, 2007|05:08 pm] |
I now know that I am completely rejected. I have no way of going back, I can't change anything, I can never be excepted.
I bought two Year of the Horse necklaces back during christmas time, and I hid one of them in Arekusu-sama's backpack inside a note. (I gave my friend Chris-kun the other one, she wore it) It turns out that yesterday, as Shane-san told me, that he threw it out the car window. (probably on his way home, which I see some days)
To quote my friend Sammy:: "What an ass!"
Eh, he was year of the snake anyway. >>;
Anime Club was today! And I brought my doujinshi collection for the girls to go through! (Most of those were yaoi/shounen-ai) There area total of 7 doujinshi and 2 pencilboards in that bag of mine. Oh, what fun!
I think the CAHSEE is coming up in a month. I'm not sure, nor am I worried. If I fail this time 'round, it'll just be that pain in the ass that I can try at again next year.
I wish I had soem art to post here but... I don't. How sad. :\ |
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| Ahhh... the weekend. :D |
[Jan. 26th, 2007|07:24 pm] |
School for me is feeling normal now. That means I worry about my grades and draw in the middle of class. But, its great. Anyway, its a nice weekend. NO HOMEWORK. <3
Three quizzes today. I do believe I failed all of them. xD; One was math, I cheated cause I was lazy on a safety quiz (I already know all the stuff), and then I just flat out think I failed my science test. I'll make it up somehow I guess. Its gonna suck.
In other news, I reinstalled my Photoshop Elements. And I've started faving tutorials on DA so I can use it well. Yay <3
My two examples! :3 Yeah... I don't do well with color. xD Oh well.
Also, SCHOOL IS ENTERTAINING. WHEN I HAVE MY CAMERA..... I catch it. SOMETIMES. LIKE HERE:
This kid threw his backpack up and caught it on a screw the first try. Everybody was just so amused by it.
I don't know how he got the toy snake. All I know is that this was incredibly funny. xD
This is meh friend Maikeru-kun. (Maikeru is the japanese pronounciation of his real name) Funniest pic of him ever. Probably one of the only pics. Gawd, I don't know how I got it, but I LOVE THE PIC. POOK POOK O3O
THIS is Shane-san! A fellow artist and best friend to my Limerant object, Arekusu-sama. He draws furries and autos. Its awesome, hes so very good at it. x3
And this... this... How'd this get in here? o_o; Hey... Its Lee-kun being sexeh on my bed! xD
Ah yes. Then theres Arekusu-sama. I'm such a sneaky bitch, catching him when he isn't looking from above. >//>
But yes. I love photos.... teehee <3 |
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| Collecting things... |
[Jan. 20th, 2007|12:39 pm] |
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Things have happened over the last couple days. School started up again. Limerence kicked back in. It snowed. Its still rather cold.
I'm so happy that my friends found me and friended me O3O I need loooooooooove. (I don't mean anybody else...) But yes. I have no new art yet, as my lunch has suddenly made me want to go to my room, hit the bed, and hibernate for who knows how long. And so.... the entry shall end. o3o |
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